if this whole region band thing has taught me anything it's this. i have been lied to my entire life...i have always been told that if you work hard at something i can always acheive it. i put more effort into this with the simple goal of just MAKING region band than i have for almost anything. i've never made it before or anything similiar to it.for the past 3 MONTHS i have given up friday nights, weekends, afternoons, lunch etc. for this. i have practiced that damn music so much that all the other people in 3rd band are sick of hearing it and what does it get me? absolutely nothing. of course this is not the first time this lie has been revealed to me. all throughout my life i have worked my ass off at stuff and failed, and every time i bring up the fact that no matter how much i work at something, it's not gonna happen, my parents are just like, "you just didn't try hard enough, just try harder next time. i've had enough of that bullshit. i think i can take a little bit of brutal honesty from them. It's like they learned everything they know about parenting from a book. that would probably explain alot of stuff. if i hear, "there's always next year" one more time i'm gonna blow a blood vessel, people have been telling me that for the past 16 years. next year doesn't matter, why the hell should it everytime i've put this much effort into something like this it never goes my way. i'm not saying that i'm gonna give up but the effort is definitely not there anymore. there's no point for it.

  posted by Unknown @ 8:16 ip.